The Road Not Taken

Being teenagers is hard
and you will never know why and when things gonna happen
exam is just 2 more days to go
tons of homeworks haven done yet
teacher won't give my pebels marks later =(
anyway, this pebel marks is for 3rd exams
not really important though
but still have to get it ><
I have peer of pressure and dealing with emotional stress
It worst =(
I just don't get how other's people can manage not to get fail on exams
without seriouslly studied
I will never know why
in chinese says "there are always have the higher mountain" <<< translate it into chinese zzz
well, it's true....maybe i'm just stupid.
why does I have so many mood swings
mostly I felt belittle << lolz, forgot how 2 spell already OR MAYBE...I don't know what word is that
haiz....whatever...I already did my best and that's ok ><
I felt anxious but I do not know what to do
it is just useless if you just worried at there without doing anything
I did, but it just didn't made any changes ><

It's Alright, It's Okay

I don't mean that to talk like that to you

If We Ever Meet Again

Why my life is so boring?
I don't know
I'm a quiet person
those who know me, they know it
i'm a bored person seriouslly
I scare to talk with strangers
I scare to order things sometimes
I can't go into the topics when my friends were talking
that why I don't have much friends


I'm quiet
so I have alot of time
to see, to concentrate
peoples who are surrounding me
I saw the way they talk, they act, they eat,
their personality and so on...
i'm very sensitive (i mean not that "sensitive")
I can sense something...and I know you are lying blah blah blah


I like to day dreaming
gaze at something and think alot of things
just like my soul has come out from my body
 but I can't do this right now
I have to concentrate on my studies
gonna crazy ><


I had made a mistake
luckily, I had turns back
if not I bet I will felt super regret now
I hope it's not too late

It's Sunday =)

It's Sunday today
the only boring and relex day
today gonna stay in the house the whole day again ><
I haven cut my hair yet
and i can guess they will delay delay delay delay it
I can't endure my hair already
I look like aunty ><
when I can tie my teeth?
half year has passed
how I wish I can hear "come, today I bring you to meet dentist" this word ><


Have a nice whether today
no haze, fresh air, blue and white sky haha
but too bad, I'm staying in the house the whole day


I felt we alll so far apart
we all not like previous time
how good it is if I can rewind the time
I tried so hard to change
I tried to be perfect
but it's still the same
how long do I have to spend?
I don't want to care but I can't
I tried to live in my own world
do what I suppose to do
and that's alright.



The older we grow, the more we want
we want that, we want this
but things won't goes what we want everytime
jealous, greedy, anger, envy and so on
will comes towards we all
life is full of setbacks.

Being alone sometimes

Leave

Today our pratical moral teacher
who teach us for 3 months already
and now it's the time comes to an end
it's time for him to leave
today while we having moral class
he asked us to write a form
which is all about "what do you think about me"
"did I teach you all well' something like that
I don't feel want to hurt him
so ya....I did a lie
I can see from his eyes
he is already did his best
anyway he is just a newbie
this is an experience for him
hope he will be more experince and improve next time
farewell =)

Despressed

Again...
I did the same thing
when I'm tring hard to do add mathes
not only this subjects
whatever things in studies
I felt despressed
I felt I left so behind compare to peoples surrounding me
anyway...theres a word "no pain, no gain"
I must GAMBATE!!


Not going to school tomorrow
coz tomorrow is anugerah day for my school
many poeople will not coming tomorrow
and there will no teachers teaching
they will busy all those stuff
and it will be a super boring day again
just like today
i'm not going to school on next Monday
coz that day is hari guru
even worst
the whole day we will stay int he hall
watching teachers to play only....


Going to cut hair tomorrow
I was like finally....
I was for tomorrow super long edi
finally it comes =)

Life is full of setbacks

I'm Back!!

I know I have been abandoned my blog for so long
and now i'm back =)


I feel so lazy to blog nowadays
was busy tuitions, homeworks and studies ><
I wanted to cut hair
but I think have to wait another 1000 years
sign....


I feel like have many things to say
but everytime I started to write
my mind all blank ><
this is one of the reason makes me lazy to blog ><
anyway, exam is around the corner
i have to control myself not to lazy anymore
GAMBATE!!

I don't know what kind of feelings I have now